What I’d Like to Do Several Years From Now (any of these)

What would you be doing 15 years from now??? Every one of us has these must-to-do-in-life. We dream of fulfilling random things and we aim in succeeding. And even to the point wherein some other people would tell us that we should take our time and not rush things. Well, they have the point but isn’t just so nice telling ourselves we can achieve whatever we have in our mind? It may be idealistic but the thought of those makes us persons. They define us. Which is why I respect people telling me those kind of things but I much value the ambitions I have which leads me to list down all the professions and things I wish I’d have in the near future.

  • Lawyer – This is what I wanted the most. I always love to debate but as of now, I don’t have the interest to debate in tournaments. I have the passion to speak in front of many people, deliver my speech and argue in an intellectual group discussions. But to suffice that in a law profession, I love being a lawyer honestly because I want the social status it has been associated to. I want my name preceded by “atty.” and I feel the need in advising people on what to do about legal or procedural matters. Also, I want to open up long lost cases which I think I could still reopen. I wanted to help the poor, it’s not idealism or “Ms. Universe” kind of answer but I always pity the poor especially old people which is why I want to help them free of charges. I hate seeing old people in jail (just this time, let me disregard their offenses just the mere fact that they are imprisoned)


  • Government Agency Employee – Relating to my course, I just want to be an employee in a government agency like DILG or NBI and do a lot of clerical works and serve people. I want to be an asset of leadership and make effects in the bureaucracy.


  • Senator – Because I idolize Sen. Miriam Santiago of the Phil. Senate (also a member of ICJ) I now want to become a Senator and make laws. Aside from that, the very essence of this is to make laws good for the people. Well you know, I fucking hate some of our laws gone to waste, really. They are good ones but the implementation is bad and poor. I want to make a law about changing the institutional form of government of our country into a federal form.


  • Fashion Designer – Well, fashion is really my passion and I think I am the only person who knows that. I love styling clothes and doing DIY stuff in order to come up with a pretty combo. I study a lot of fashion themes and I just love designing.


  • Author – I wrote a rough draft of my novel and I now, if the will says so… I want to go back to writing a novel and start a new one. I want to publish relevant socio-political awakening books which tackle various societal and political issues. Aside from earning, I’d also love to inspire people around the world.


  • Writer/Columnist – I am that opinionated type of person which is why I always aim to be a writer or a columnist of a certain tabloid or newspaper and magazines. I also want to tell people about my thoughts and that I have a stand.


  • Gardener – Plants are precious for me. I want a garden that’s full of species of flowers, ordinary plants and herbal ones. I want to grow as much as of these plants and create a greenhouse. Along with that, I always want to stay green-fingered.


  • F21 Model – This is my wildest dream- to become a Forever 21 model. Though I don’t have guts and qualities to be one. Still I firmly believe that I can be like those my favorite F21 models- tan, thin and gorgeous. Haha


  • Traveler – I want to travel to South Korea, Taiwan, China, Japan, Egypt, Greece, Australia, France and?


How about you? What are your ambitions? You can even list as much as you want.


September COME BACK!

Hi, I’m back for a very long time! How are you?

Well as for me, I am doing fine- really really fine though I had a lot of relapse and mishaps the past months. Just recently, I am also managing my anxiety problem. Thought of going to our guidance office but I rejected the thought because I seemed to be managing this well, so far.

But going back, I seemed to process a lot of ideas the past few months and I hadn’t been blogging those. A lot of those and forgot most of them. But let me start my come back with a bio-post again LOL

I’ve already made changes, small changes with immense impacts. So far, they made me better. They changed me for like 70% in me (perhaps if my estimation is not wrong)

First, I’ve come not to hate this one person anymore. Way back, I was used to curse her like hell because I simple hate her the way she is. I was jealous back then because she has something I don’t have. I admit that. I hate her existence and I hate everything about her. But that was before. Now, I’m loving her as a friend. I don’t mind what she’s up to, what she’s doing or even what she’s wearing now compared before. The rage against her has not yet blown away entirely but at least 1/8 of it has gone so far. The feeling is light and I love it.

Second, as much as possible I was able to resist temptations and deny so much materialism. I am working now as a writer in a certain company plus I race through days to keep with my schedule as a working student and as a responsible daughter. Still, I am this person in the house who never leaves the house with so much mess and I see to it that my cousin is good going to school and that mom’s fine. I deal with problems (though I had hard times and worst ones) and I was able to keep my pedestal. More so, temptations though they’re nerve-wracking still at least even a bit, I was able to resist them like simple eat-outs and strolling. I kept up. I was also able not to buy so much things which I did not need. Now, I only buy those I see as very important. I am also glad to have my job because it really pays – I get paid while I learn and enjoy.

Third, the exposure I was used to have in school had been changed. I am now an ordinary school girl and I love everything about it, no regrets though there are times I would think I wished I had them back. But I love earning my own money and earning job experience credits. For practicality’s sake. I wouldn’t want to graduate by 2015 (hopefully) with no job assurance. I was also able to avoid too much texting of which I was addicted into. Then, today is my 16th day of no Facebook account. It’s just I felt Facebook brought no good things to me the past weeks which is why I deactivated it. Now I am now in my Twitter and I love every single thing I do there. Also I realized that I could really survive from these changes so long as I still have “one thing” to share all my random feelings whenever I want to shout out and that is Twitter.

Fourth, the guy I’ve been eyeing for so long now has been a brain drain for me which is why I chose to avoid him and eventually cut off our communication. Will not go into details but I am just happy we’re not talking anymore- virtual talks I mean. I believe he’s still into this girl and I couldn’t keep up. I hurt hurting myself, simple as that. I’ve only been an option, that’s my instinct and observation and I couldn’t anymore suffice looking so dumb which is why I ended everything. But so much for that…

Fifth, the most important thing is that…. despite my anxiety disorder (specifically OCD) and all the problems at work, school and at home, I am slowly pacing- I am slowly retrieving my steps- I am slowly rising- I am slowly taking a stand- I am slowly recovering because I also came back to God. To be honest, I came to a point where I missed Him. I forgot He was there and I even doubted His existence. But I am thankful enough that after a very long time (I guess so) I am now back to His Kingdom. I’d always love reading few passages in the Bible every night and I love talking to Him whenever I want. It seems that God is more than a Twitter to me. As Twitter would accumulate all my emotions and ideas, God is more than that. He’s also able to relieve my stress and pains. He’s able to solve what I’m going through by simply tapping at my back and hugging me although not physically.

I may have had a lot of rise and fall for the last 3 months but I surpassed them. Good thing I have Him. So truly blessed. Hope you find His intervention, too. 🙂 He’ll put a smile on your face, for sure. 🙂